I sometimes stare at Mason like he's not mine. Not because I do not want him to be, but simply because I am amazed I have created such a precious human being with Clayton. His everything has been embedded in my mind and heart like stone and I get excited at every new milestone he experiences. Becoming a Mother is quite the journey and unless you've gone through it yourself, you'll have to take my word for it!
I am a mom. I have been since February 21st 2009 when Mason took a journey from my womb into the world, into his Dad's waiting hands and eventually my waiting arms. I rarely contemplate life before him as I feel it's a chapter that has been permanently closed. The single life, the online dating and the crazy adventures I'd go on weekly. My life now consists of the well-being of Mason and in thinking about that, I started to realize just what being a Mom means to me (I'll try to keep the sappy stuff at a minimum).
trading in my impulse purchases of flare, cosmo and Marie-Claire magazines for a subscription to Canadian Family, Parents and Today's Parent
getting more excited about buying cutesy baby clothes than clothes of my own. It's amazing how long you'll wear maternity clothes post partum
making incredibly goofy faces and sounds to get an adorable gummy smile
super-multitasking just to allow me to eat, sleep and hmmm what's the other thing?
yearning for uninterupted sleep (10 hours would be lovely) which makes me daydream of years ago when I'd spend an entire Sunday in bed with a boatload of library books and taking naps when I felt like it
smiling at the reason that I've been enviro-friendly for many years because I didn't want my future children to grow up in a garbage wasteland and excited for the day I can teach Masey about composting and the like
recent discussion with Clayton about upgrading our vehicles for one 'family' vehicle. He doesn't want a SUV and I don't want a mini-van, guess someone is going to have to create something in between for us to purchase
feel more of a connection to any friend with chidren since that's all I really want to talk about lately
I find it neat that the minute you are visibly pregnant and then with a baby that every stranger wants to talk to you/coo at your baby/ask questions/rub your belly
thought of going to the gym is out and joining stoller strides is in
the day of 'light' packing is long gone and a full car for just a weekend trip is a bit more realistic (and yes, we do need all that crap we packed)
avoiding any articles in mainstream news (local online newspaper/cnn.com) or magazines that have anything to do with abortion, child injury/death caused by others, molestation (you get the idea) as it instantly brings tears to my eyes and permeates my thoughts for hours
having a new respect for parents who have suffered miscarriage(s) / loss of a child and hoping I never experience the same along with hoping that my children outlive Clayton and I
daydreaming about all the good things Mason and his siblings will do in the world (along with his career choice...)
playing Mason's secretary by managing all the paperwork! birth certificates, SIN, RESP, TFSA, bank accounts, MSP...it's endless!
having that icky feeling when Masey is in pain (itchy skin, tummy troubles etc) and trying to quickly soothe him
accepting that the perfect, perky full breasts I once obsessed over have 'grown up' and are now serving their purpose. Can I live with the droop? the increase in size? I guess time will tell [I predict a future blog about this topic]
heart melting at night when he's in my arms and he instantly relaxes, sighs and falls back asleep
singing made up songs to make naptime more enjoyable (Clayton does this too but his are hilarious)
realizing that my body will never return to what it once was and wishing I had appreciated it more in the previous years (you were not fat then and you probably aren't now!)
proudly showing him off to relatives/friends that are meeting him for the first time
that my life will never be the same and this is what I've always wanted
I just realized that this list is really endless and there is so much more I could add, however it's 11:30pm and I'm missing out on valuable sleepy time! I hope you enjoyed today's blog and please feel free to comment and add your favorite "Mommy moments".
Wishing all you parents 'sleep through the night'
You are ma son-shine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray, you'll never know dear how much I love you.